Well, today our daughter is 17 months old. We went out as a family to celebrate, but my heart wasn't really into celebrating. We are ready to hold her and share these milestones in person. We've already missed so much of her life and today is one more thing we've missed. So many people want to gloss over the loss and grief that is always some part of adoption. Yes, our daughter will gain so much when we are united, but she will also lose a culture, a language and her birthplace. She will lose the comfort of looking like everyone else. She will lose all that is familiar to her up until now, including nannies and other children in her orphanage. We will gain more than is speakable when we are united, but we are aware of what we've lost as well--TIME and KNOWLEDGE. I don't know when she took her first breaths outside her first mother's womb. I don't know her exact birthday. I don't know how she's been taken care of until now, what she's afraid of, what she likes, who she looks like. I wasn't there to see so many firsts or to teach her to trust from the beginning. So, today we not only celebrate but mourn. And long for that day when we hold her and start sharing our lives together. Please pray that we receive travel clearance and immigration clearance quickly. Please pray that she is safe from harm and is not afraid. Please pray for her physical needs to be taken care of.
So, to our precious daughter--we wish you love, peace, and joy on this special day. We are waiting for you and cannot wait to make up for all those special moments when we're together!
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We're praying for you Snow family. This part of the wait is so very hard - but know that there are those of us who know exactly how you feel and we are thinking of you. It is hard to miss these milestones, but very soon you will all be together and a new exciting chapter can begin! Till then, your on my heart and in my thoughts!
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Angie
It still makes me sad to think of the time we missed with Jessa. I've never talked about this with the older kids, but not too long ago my older daughter mentioned how she wished J. had been here when she was a baby. Intellectually I know that all her early experiences contributed to her being 'her', but try telling that to a mama's heart! May the years you spend together far, far outweight the years you spent apart! Prayers, Gael
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ReplyDeleteSo sorry you are missing out on these precious days with Brenna. Praying for you to be able to go and get her SOON!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the pictures! We are praising God with you all for His faithfulness. Looking forward to meeting her and seeing you all.
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